I know you see your shattered pieces all around the street,
I know no one is picking them up.
I know you think that your blood is too dirty to keep you alive,
That you’re losing your shine,
That you’re not loved,
That they are the whole universe and you’re just a crack in a window pane,
That you only bloom when they hold you.
I know you’re fragile as your veins are.
I know you think you want to throw your life away.
But I also know you always had a fascination for chaos,
You always picked up your own pieces instead of leaving them on the street.
I know you always loved the colour of your blood.
I know that you radiate a supernatural light;
I’ve seen it,
I still see it when you’re drinking your coffee on your balcony,
When you’re reading your book and smiling,
When you’re breathing slowly in hopes of finding your happy place,
When you’re hugging your blanket in hopes of shaking your anxiety away.
Even when you’re whimpering on the floor,
Honey, I see your shine.
I know that you’re your own universe,
And they’re just stars;
And we both know that stars die.
I know that you’re the one letting your soul travel into the depths of everything they never cared about,
That you’re feeding it with your unlimited thoughts,
That you’re building yourself.
I know that they’re your rainbows,
But you can not stop moving forward because it’s raining.
I know for sure you do not want to die,
You just want to live;
I was there when you sat on the edge of that old building, and your heart dropped.
I know it’s past midnight,
And your routine is draining you.
But, there is always something waiting for you;
The abandoned house you never explored.
The narrow, old streets you never walked through,
The dusty bookstore you never visited,
The book you never read,
The poem you never wrote,
The peanut butter cake you never tried,
The flowers you never smelt,
The mountains you never saw,
There is always someone waiting for you;
The first guy that will kiss your lips,
Caress your silhouette,
Bite your fluffy cheeks,
Write you a sonnet,
Endure your bad habits,
Make love to your soul.
The person that will turn you smarter,
Make you wonder,
Change your beliefs.
The world is waiting for you.
The universe is just waiting for the right time.
You cannot skip sadness,
And jump into happiness,
Because they balance life.
Your ‘before midnight’ self.